Wednesday, August 17, 2016

So Worth It

Meet Buddy


He is 4 and a half months of chunky adorableness, and I am blessed to be called his mama.  He came with stress though.  The beginning and end of my pregnancy were fraught with worry, and anxiety, and financial troubles.  Honestly, that last part hasn't stopped (insurance companies are stressful to work with - can I get an amen?).  There was an unexpected hospital stay when he was just 5 days old.  And adjusting to life with 4 Messy Kids has been a bigger adjustment than we anticipated.  A little bit of pride got in the way there.  We've done this three times before, we've got this!  What could POSSIBLY go wrong?  Famous last words, right?

But you know what, that worry that I would lose him was worth having him in my womb. 


The special diet I had to be on at the end was worth it to keep him healthy. 

The pain and anxiety of labor in a new hospital with a new doctor was worth it to hold him in my arms. 


Spending long sleepless nights with him in the hospital (just days after bringing him home)  was worth it to keep him safe.


Fighting with the insurance companies is worth having him as part of our family.

Nursing him while he is fighting sleep and doesn't want me to let him go is worth it to see him sleeping peacefully.





Having to sit and supervise my bigger boys while they try to juggle him and his still-a-little-bit-floppy head is worth it to see him laugh at them. 


Being busier than I have ever been before in my life is worth having my four wonderful messy ones.  Buddy, Buds, Bubba, and Baby Girl each add their own unique brand of "worth it" to my life every day.  The way Bubba calls for me over the monitor in the morning.  The way that Buds wants 'nuggles and kisses" before we part.  The giggles that I get from Buddy when I nurse him and make faces at him.  The way that Baby Girl has to have her jewelry and hair "just so" before we leave the house.  These are my worth it moments.  They are worth the hard things.  They are worth the tired.  They are worth the work.

Motherhood can be rough.  It is almost entirely thankless.  It is a long slog of work that has to be done no matter what.  It isn't always fun.  But I want to encourage you!  While you are in the trenches, remember the small moments.  The worth it moments.  The things that your kids do to make you smile.  Be like Mary, and treasure them in your heart.  Choose to fill yourself with those things.  They will sustain you.

But be sure to dance the chicken dance, or draw silly pictures too, because that isn't work!  Its FUN! And trust me, that will fill up your children too!

Stay Messy Friends!













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